When I was 10 years old I was obsessed with the idea of getting a tea cup chihuahua and naming her Cutie. I printed out hundreds of photos of chihuahuas, ordered dog clothes and dreamed of what it would be like to have a little pup. I prayed every single day for 2 years (sometimes twice a day) for a little Chihuahua. My 12th birthday was just around the corner and my parents pulled me out of school early. My dad handed me a letter and said "we are on our way to the airport to pick up your Cutie!!" I immediately started crying, I was in shock. I couldn't believe that after 2 years of praying I was finally going to get my puppy. We picked up Cutie and we were best friends for life. Cutie Belle and I were inseparable. Unfortunately, she passed away at age 10. She was so special and so loving. She had a lot of breathing issues as she got older, she needed 24 hour care. Her last few years I was with her 24/7. It taught me so much about caring for someone and helped me to trust God. Looking back, I am so glad God made me wait for her.
It's no surprise that I want to get engaged and get married asap! The subject of engagement comes up almost everyday, once you've been dating someone for 8 years people are always asking "when's the wedding?" "when are you getting engaged?" it can get overwhelming. I mentioned this on my YouTube channel that my grandpa loved Connor and I so much. Everyday he would tell me that he wanted to be there for my wedding. Once my grandpa passed away I was devastated, I couldn't understand why God had taken him before we got engaged. I had a really hard time and started to question everything, I even came to the point where I felt like I didn't want to get married at all.
About a year later, after all the emotions, I started to realize why I didn't get engaged. When you get engaged it should be the happiest time of your life. You should be stress free and excited to plan a wedding. I was neither of those things, I was sad because my grandma had recently passed away, I was still dealing with the anxiety and sadness from Cutie passing away a couple months earlier and miserable because I knew my grandpa was going to pass soon. I thought getting engaged would magically take all that pain away and make me happy. What if we had gotten engaged? I would have had to deal with death while also planning a wedding, it wouldn't have been healthy. Looking back I am so grateful that we did not get engaged during that trial. I am now finally feeling happy and healthy. I feel comfort knowing that whenever it is my time to get engaged and married it will be the most perfect timing because it is in God's hands.
The funny thing with God's timing is that we have no control over it. We think we know what's best for us but at the end of the day we don't. God sees our whole life and knows perfectly when to let certain events happen or when to let certain people come into our lives. I'm sure that there's situations you can look back on and be thankful that things didn't happen the way you wanted. Everything happens or doesn't happen for a reason and we all need to learn to trust that. Share your story about waiting on God's timing below, I'd love to hear :)
